Friday 30 July 2010

two more days AND I'M OUTTA HERE! ♥

When you have lemons, you make lemonade
and when you have rice, you make rice balls.
woke up late, at like 12pm and missed my chance to webcam low gong! :(
everyone's packing for malaysia and hong kong right now.
and mum's pissing everyone off including dad;
who's probably been pissed off since last week.

considering my parents haven't been sleeping in the same bed,
and using my baby sister as an excuse
when she doesn't sleep in their room most of the time.

didn't go to new look yesterday to exchange/return shoes
because i wanted to stay at home and webcam tim.
maybe i should've gone? then we would've avoid an argument!
but i guess avoiding it means it'll come up sooner or laterrr.
and at least i'd have my shoes lol!

but it's okay.
i think i'm gonna go in a sec.

two more days.
two more bloody days.
AND I'M OUTTA HERE FOR THREE WEEKS!
mum's backed out of us giving money.
but at least we get time away from her!
i think my dad's happier than i am lol!

Thursday 29 July 2010

it's so cold waking up without you♥

everytime i look into your eyes
i can tell you our love is still alive
it's killing me, oh baby
morning sunshineee! (:
another crxppy day in thetford eh?

gotta go new look in town cos
the pumps joey got me were different sizes!
no wonderrr! i thought my right foot
was like, superrr big compared to my left!

my fringe is getting really long o____o
i think i'm gonna save it for a makeover in hong kong! ;)

NEED TO FIND THAT POLAROID CAMERA!

i really miss you.
i hate waking up and not being able to hear your voice
and not being able to text/call you.

i'd so eat you right now.

There are four questions of value in life…
What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made?
What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for ?
The answer to each is the s a m e.
Only Love
if you were here, i'd eat you.
right here. right now.
i miss you.

always be with you♥

i can conquer the world with one hand
as long as you are holding the other
baby, i got your text and i'm sorry i can't text back.
i don't want my parents to have to pay a ridiculous bill again ><

don't be sorry for not being here today, it's okay :)
we knew you weren't going to be here since a while ago
when you booked your flight tickets, you silly bum!
i'm sorry i can't be there with you right now :(

and about your uncle.. i don't really know what to say.
i would say, "darling, i'm sorry it had to be like this.."
but then you'd say, "stop apologising fathead" so.. :/
i guess you can't really do anything about it for now,
so for now.. gar yow inets (:

because it's not your fault he's like that,
and there's not much you can do anyway.

you know.. i realised i'm a really gullible and oblivious person.
a few days ago, when you arrived in malaysia,
and we webcammed for the first time, you looked so happy.
i was happy that you were actually happy there
cause you're gonna be there for like, two weeks right?

but i had no idea there were so many problems behind the scenes.
i'm sorry ><

just remember, you're not alone.
you're never alone because i'm always with you.
even if i'm not physically there (:

it's not that easy to get rid of me! ;)
i love you.

P/S: ..and i can't wait till i see you again!

play-doh love♥

take two different coloured play-doh
mush them together
now it's one colour that's inseparable
that's like me and you
freud was right.
childhood does affect you later on in life!
i've come to realise, the reason as to why
i don't like play-doh and sweets
is because mum never let me play with play-doh
and someone once got it stuck in my hair in nursery,
and mum never let me eat sweeets
because she said it'd rot all my teeth lol
which is why i have perfect teeth now i guess ;D
i really miss you :(

honey, watch out for the last picture (; ♥

i want to feel the wind in my hair
i'm actually in love with this jacket!
it might be a bit too hot to bring to hong kong though! :(
oh wells! jung mm jung yee ah, low gong? ;D


did you look, honey? :)
slap.

more fake eyelashes! ♥

sometimes i’ve believed as many as
six impossible things before breakfast
haha bare trying it with the puppy dog face!
i'm practicing so i can make it work on you, low gong! ;)
THESE FAKE EYELASHES ARE AMAAAAZING! ♥
unedited! oooo~!

hulloo fake eyelashes! ♥

i love s l e e p.
my life has the tendency to
fall apart when i’m awake.
i tried the fake eyelashes on!
omg they took me forever to put in!
but i guess they were worth it! :)

it looks better on my right eye where
the eyelid actually closes normally! ==
they make my eyes look biggg! ^^


leng mm leng ah, low gong? :)

Wednesday 28 July 2010

記住,你的生日是一年一次 :)

今天是我的生日。
我的男朋友是在馬來西亞。
其實我都知道他不會是第一個說生日快樂。
因為我知道,打電話給我會很貴,
和英國的時間和馬來的時間是不同的!

我想他做很多事情,但是他看不到我的想法。
所以我想他永遠都不會做得出。
其實我都知道會發生什麼,但是我還是想有希望。

因為有一天,我要你證明給我看,
你其實可以做得出我的願望。
你需要多少時間,我都會等你。

你知道嗎,當12點來了,沒有人說什麼。
除了我的妹妹,沒有人說生日快樂,
因為大家都想給你一個機會先。
你不打電話給我,你沒有上msn or facebook.
但是我都有等你。
我不會那麼容易放棄啦。

2點來了,我上facebook看到你給我的 "生日快樂" :)
然後你打電話給我!
當我聽到你的聲音,我的心跳得很快。
我真的沒有想到你會打電話給我!
多謝你可以給我那麼好的驚喜。
我想。。大家說的 "生日快樂" 和大家給我的禮物
都沒有你給我的 "生日快樂" 那麼重要啦!

大家都知道,你的男朋友給你的 "生日快樂" 是非常重要的。
如果他們沒有打電話給你,你的生日就可能不會特別。

我有一個好朋友,4個月前,他的女朋友和他分手。
我不可以說我知道每一個原因為什麼他們分手,
但是其中一個原因是因為在他的女朋友的生日,
個男朋友有text她,但是,他沒有打電話給她,她有沒有去看她。 

但是的女朋友知不知道,他沒有去看她是因為他沒有錢。
他不打電話給她,是因為他們兩個都生氣了。
其實兩個都有錯了,個男朋友太固執,
 個女朋友太容易生氣。
可惜他們分手了。

因為到今天,我知道這個男朋友可能有一點遺憾。
他沒有我說,但是我知道他有問自己,
如果在這一天,他有去看他的女朋,
結果會不會不同了?

我的男朋友總是說,
"life is too fast for regrets."

所以我想和所有朋友說。。
你的生日是一年一次。
大家都會為了你開心啦!
忘記不開心事。
不好那麼容易放棄。
原諒人們。
不要遺憾。

因為今年會比去年好的10倍。
生日快樂大家 :)

presents this year! woo! (:


you will spend your childhood
dreaming of your teenage years
and you will spend your teenage years
dreaming of your childhood
woke up late for opticians but whateverrr (;
got my monthly contacts ordered woo!
hopefully they'll come before i go!

here's a brief of the stuff i got this year! :)

chantel got me..
a card, a nail buffer/filer, an eyebrow pencil lol!
she didn't even know what it was herself haha
and some fake eyelashes (;
gonna kill myself putting them on lol!


karman got me..
a card, a jacket from new look! (:

joey got me..
a card, some pumps! (:

mum got me..
a size up from the boots i bought lol!
i bought size 5 and i guess they were a little small ^^"

and i bought myself a new mascara
and an eyeliner (cause i'd ran out lols)

i'm fine, really :) ..she's lying.


"I believe in being strong when
everything seems to be going wrong.
I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls.
I believe that tomorrow is another day
and I believe in m i r a c l e s."
i didn't want to take up everyone's offer of
texting or calling you to give you a head start.
i wanted you to do it on your own.

and when people ask if me i'm okay with that,
i say of course i am, i'm fine. :) i'll get over it.
but actually.. i'm really not okay with it.. at all.

just another birthday wish.. not from you.

I forgive you because I love you.
that’s simple and that’s complicated.
to forgive is to move forward.
Georgia rule.
every time my phone vibrates, i grab it super fast,
thinking there's a chance it might still be you.
but it's just another happy birthday from a friend.

biting back the tears.

“We do not stop playing because we grow old
We grow old because we stop playing.”
kit was, by text.
soeng ha by facebook (super early!).
rajiv and jason by msn.
jason (again) and tommy by phone.
thanks guys :)

it's so funny how everyone just automatically
gave tim a five minute head start
and they waited until 12:05am to wish me
a happy birthday lols
but he still wasn't first anyway.. ><

you know what i really hate?
the fact that i always hope for these things
even though i know it's not going to happen,
and then i just end up proving myself right.

but it's the fact that i still keep wishing.
because there's always the hope that
one day you'll prove me wrong
and you'll do one of the things i secretly wished for.

he'll probably say happy birthday last,
because being last is "more special" right?
being the last one to say it is special.
but being the first to say it is even more special.
it means you actually waited up too :)

i know you're at the other side of the world,
calls and texts cost a lot.
but at the bottom of my tiny heart,
i still hoped you'd be on msn at 00:01am.

a girl can still dream.
happy birthday wai man,
you're finally seventeen :)

he wasn't first after all..

Tuesday 27 July 2010

please please pleaseee be the first! ♥

Beauty is in the eye of the Beholder
couldn't sleep last night! >< slept at like 3am?
and then i woke up at 9am chuuu~ so tired!
and my stomach cramps were soo bad!

went out to town to send some stuff i sold on amazon.
and then i bummed around and bought a new jacket - on sale!
i paid £5 and karman and chantel each paid £5 lol
karman said she's not giving it to me until my birthday.

i actually forgot it was my birthday until joey was like,
"ga tsei! it's your birthday tomorrow!" i was like oh yeahhh haha (;

slept when i came home and took some panadol,
woke up and the pain was gone - THANK THE LORD!
fell asleep again and woke up and it was there again :(

we have a new worker for when we're on holiday,
he looked like a certain little bstrd from the side
and i was soo ready to gun him down hahaa

worked for a bit and now i'm up and trying to watch maid sama
but my laptop is so ridiculously ancient that it's superrr lagging!

i'm gonna stay up and see if tim can be bothered
to wake up at 7am (malaysia time) to say happy birthday to me! :)
i hope he's the first to say it! i even told rajiv and jason
to not say happy birthday to me until 12:05am hahaa
prove the pit feeling in the back of my mind wrong, darling!

i'm lost without you♥

if it wasn’t for you,
i’d be so l o s t right now
you keep me sane
omg i just looked at the clock
and i thought it said 6am! i was like wtfux?!
lols and then i saw the little hand ^^"
i don't feel sleepy at all!

and all that is running through my mind now,
is you.

i should be in school council again! >D

when everything was as bright as the bluest sky
okay i know no one likes the idea of uniform,
but wouldn't it be soo cool, if the girl's uniform was like this?!
it looks so kawaii! aaaah~! i wouldn't complain having to wear this :D

princess wai man! it's better than disney ;)

once upon a time,
there lived no prince no princess
no enchanted spells or happily ever afters
just those occasional small special moments
you will always be my prince in shining foil.
and as long as i have you by my side,
i will always feel like a princess.