Thursday 30 September 2010

coconut hair! old skooool♥

when a guy says you're hot, he's looking at your body.
when a guy says you're pretty, he's looking at your face.
when a guy says you're beautiful, he's looking at your heart.
i decided to be smart today and not wear a coat.
and the day i don't wear a coat, it ends up being FREEZING!
so i was freezing like, all morning and thank god it got hot later on.

was having a bad enough morning,
then mr white gave me some notes and
it just topped off the perfectly ugly morning.

maths was amazingly drier than usual
and economics just pissed me off.
guess i wasn't little miss sunshine today haha ==

chi tsuen and pranoy dragged vergil to me o__o
haha he's actually quite a funny guy.

came home and picked up tim's prescription.
did psychology essay and spent hours doing extra stuff -
cos i don't want to not understand something.
and now i'm starting stats! finallyyy!
made spaghetti bolognese, mmmm (:

i'm so tired!

hello spotty face.
don't laugh at my hair.
it's cool (;

Wednesday 29 September 2010

eyebag lady alert!

take a chance on me.
i promise i won't let you down.
psychology in the morning wasn't so bad
and we got given quite a lovely essay to write about (:
haha and i'm not even being sarcastic about that!

during period 3 and 4, i finished some of maths
but only ended up finishing like, one question..
cos everyone was chatting and i got distracted!

chi tsuen and pranoy joined us for lunch (:
the study room was filled up after lunch
and i needed a computer so we went home -
'we' as in, me, jintana, soeng ha and tasnia.

took my money back from my oyster too yayy (:
apparently, from tomorrow, it'll just start charging me at adult rates
so technically i don't need to go and buy another oyster.
STILL A LOT OF MONEY THOUGH!
oh well, it'll encourage me to walk more haha (;

went to fill out tim's prescription, collecting it tomorrow.
got loads of things to do now!
personal statement
psychology essay
psychology catch-up-work
core 3 homework
core 3 work
stats homework
stats catch-up

and i haven't even started revising for my retakes!
i'm taking C2, S1 and microeconomics in january.
and i think i'm going to take C1 and one psychology in june,
just in case it'll do me any good (:
didn't have the money to get them for january! ><
check out those eyebags o________o

hot pink lacy lingerie mmm♥ (;

If I were the Rain… could i connect to Someone’s Heart,
just like it connects the Never Intersecting Sky and Earth?
kinda bummed around in the morning with tasnia talking about pranoy ;)
she seems to have taken an interest towards him hahaa, even if she denies it!
she doesn't want to appear too desparate and crazy about him,
but she's still the obsessed little fan girl - minus the cufflinks lol (;

no teacher in psychology but i didn't end up doing work anyway,
slept on the third floor cos my head was hammering for ages.
maths felt extremely long and we've got more work to do agan.
work and homework is actually endless.

so tempted to not go in.

but having not gone in for a day kind of scares me
considering the amount of work i had missed.

went shopping afterwards with tasnia and i saw the cutest heels!
they're actually perfect for christmas this year! aaaaah~!
and the 20% off for students is on right now and it finishes in oct :(
they're short black boots with laces and a fluffy ankle!
karman doesn't have itunes so i can't upload the photo.

tim came over but he had a little difficulty breathing
and he'd left his asthma pump up in hemel so he left.
get well soon!

karman's laptop won't let me uplad photos at all!
my worst nightmare haha

Monday 27 September 2010

i miss what we used to be :(

it kinda feels weird looking at your facebook,
and flicking through the photos of your summer 2010.
i initially added you because i wanted to speak to you again,
but it looks like i was just being naive and it was just me who needed you.

summer was supposed to be our thing every year.
and looking at you now, clearly i would've expected a replacement.
but who knew the replacement was another one of my old best friends?
it's funny how i've been friends with the both of you for years..
and yet, we end up like how we are now.

now, i don't know whether or not it would be right
to message you and try to talk things through,
and give you all the explanations you deserve.

on the bright side, yana messaged back! :)
and it made my day when she said she wanted to meet up and chat.
because to be honest, i think this whole time,
i acted like it was alright if i didn't have those friends in my life,
but actually, i did mind, and i did want to be able to talk to them.

wish you were here, you'd be my cure♥

There’s a little truth to every “uh, just kidding”,
a little curiosity behind every “just wondering”,
a little knowledge behind every “I don’t know”,
and a little emotion behind every “I don’t care”.
was so ill today! lost my voice and killer headaches,
so i spent the day staying in bed and watching pretty little liars (:
rajiv and tim have started watching it too! haha awww.
i guess we don't judge a book by its cover after all (;

tried sleeping but i kept getting nervous cos
it sounded like someone was trying to break in!
but it was just the people above - floorboards are thiiiin!

AND THEN A MOUSE PAID A VISIT TO OUR KITCHEN.

went out to meet up with chian for a bit and then
headed off to jason's cos they were gonna walk to oxford st!
finished maid-sama's last episode and played some games.

met kit at the bottom of tim's house and chatted for a bit,
and then my headache came back so i went upstairs.
martin had left a note for me, ed and karman, in the morning,
and then i came home and ed had left a note for me.
so i was alone for the evening :/ martin just came home haha.

tim was laughing at me cos i didn't know how to use the oven ==
and then martin wrote in the note "rice in the boiler already,
just turn the boiler on." why does everyone think i can't cook?!
okay maybe i can't, but i'm not thaaat bad! ><

my head really hurts; soeng ha stepped in for tonight -
interpreting at year 11 parent's evening, thankfully.
i owe her my life now, literally.

tim's staying up in hatfield cos he has work tomorrow,
and karman's off to blencathra for a week until friday..
even edward isn't at home, my god.
this house feels kinda empty :(
god i wish i was american.
american. and hot.

Saturday 25 September 2010

person number two; kate ♥

Remember, we all stumble, every one of us.
That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand.
i guess it's right for you to be angry at me because of all people,
you should have been one of the first to know.
i don't really know why i took that BB to be honest..
i guess i just do things irrationally because it's just.. me?

and to be honest, i think it's girls who get what they want..
end up being the girls who do things more out of the ordinary.

we both know, that out of everyone in the group
(or what used to be 'our group')
i was known to do things more wildly,
but although the things i do are a little crazier,
it doesn't mean that you guys shouldn't be a part of it.

okay, you were angry i didn't say anything to you,
but you forgave me.. maybe you didn't forgive,
but you did let go.. then why did you turn around
and act like we're suddenly strangers?
i was angry you walked out on me, i still am.

but that's alright.

because if you''re still the girl i was friends with,
then we shouldn't have to explain to sort things out.
things like this just take time to heal.
i know i've done a lot of things that i know i've only shared with you,
and sometimes, without realising it, it puts pressure on you.
and i'm sorry, i really am.

but if you really can walk away without looking back,
then maybe we weren't really friends..
but i know, that deep down, you will have thought about me once.
you would have thought about the friendship we've lost,
and hopefully, you will want to talk things through again.
because if that's what it takes for me to get you back,
bring it on.





person number one; yana ♥

A true friend is one who thinks you are a
good egg even if you are half-cracked.
no one knew who i was, and everyone knew who you were.
it was like, ugly betty and queen bee paired together.
i don't even remember how we became friends lol,
but i do remember laughing and smiling with you..

you made me realise, that listening to your heart
may not be right, but it's more right than listening to your head.
at times when i felt like the whole world was on my shoulders,
you'd always help me find a way to laugh things off.

and you'd spend hours on the phone with me everyday,
because you knew i was lonely and although i said i wasn't,
you could always tell if i was lying.

i miss our bxtchy little gossips,
and your endless talks about your countless boyfriends.
i remember why our friendship ended, and i'm sorry.

i guess i was just annoyed and angry,
that my best friend was being taken away - by a guy.
and i just let it out on you.
it was such a pathetic argument,
and losing you was a shame, honestly.

i miss your little make-up experiments on me,
and the number of times you told me i was beautiful,
and to be myself? i lost count.
thank you.

if it weren't for you, i wouldn't have been able to stand back up so many times.
if it weren't for you, i wouldn't have been able to do what my heart told me to.
and if it weren't for you, i wouldn't have the happiness i have now.
the fact that i have tim in my life, is partly thanks to you.

you told me that i was better than all those other girls
that were going after him or him going after them.
you told me that as long as i kept trying,
and as long as my feelings reached him,
i had tried hard enough.
and i did.

thank you, so much.
yana.




 

the little things i miss♥

A friend is the one who comes in
when the whole world has gone out.
i miss having people who stick by me through everything.
i miss being able to speak to someone for hours on the phone.
i miss having someone to gossip with.
not that i don't have amazing friends now,
but i miss having my old friends.

and even if you guys can walk past me like nothing happened,
like our friendship was never there in the first place.. i can't.

i think i'm going to message each and
every one of you that did actually matter to me
because i don't want to leave st marylebone
regretting the things that i had done,
that had caused us to fall apart.
i don't want us to not be friends.

friends are a big thing to me.
so regardless of what happened,
you still mean a lot to me.

is it ever too late to tell you this..?

Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things. 
feels kinda weird that i haven't blogged in ages :/
busy busy week i guess! A2 is a lot more work than expected.

lunched with chi tsuen on thursday -
omg he's so grown up now, it's scary!
it's funny thinking back how immature he we once were.
he brought pranoy (aka. also know as punjab)
cos tasnia seemed 'kinda' interested in him (;

he''s actually kind of perfect for her?
but kind of like an Ally Kanji junior so
maybe he isn't a very safe option haha
and i think she wants to focus on A2 :)

god i need to start revising for my resits! argh! :S

started watching pretty little liars which is
another series directed by the same person
who is directing gossip girl!
omggg gossip girl is getting gooood now! aaaah~!
so is the pretty little liars one if it would just LOAD!

tim started work today, and he sounds so tired ><
waking up at 6am to go there and not finishing till 6pm!
tim's mum has flown to malaysia literally just now
because tim's uncle has just passed away.. ><

there was a bxtch fight in school today
between yana and laura.
i'd back yana up any day.
we might not be close friends anymore -
scratch that, we might not even be close to friends haha
but we were once best friends and she stood by me.
she gave me confidence and she encouraged me
to listen to my heart three years ago.

if it weren't for her, i would've gave up on you.
so i owe it to her.

i messaged her on facebook saying thank you,
considering i hadn't been able to say it for almost four years now.
and it actually makes me feel a whole lot better.
i feel like this year should be the start of a great year -
regardless of whether or not i flop A levels altogether,
i want to leave sixth form with a smile.

i don't want to feel like, i'm leaving the place i spent six years in,
and i came out with nothing but broken friendships
and unexplained misunderstandings.

Saturday 18 September 2010

..and i think of you(:

Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.
and i'm tiiiired. so you're the only memory keeping me smiling right now.

consequences! :( :( :(

"the choices you make in life are important.
the mistakes you make have consequences in the adult life.
..that's just too bad."
i hate how, what i achieved this year,
was basically nothing.
yes of course it was something,
but it was nothing enough.
if that makes sense to you,
because it does to me.

i hate how i never listen to anyone regardless
of who you are and what you mean to me.
when those year 13s said to put your head down and work
in year 12 so you've not fxcked for year 13,
why didn't i listen?! arhbdfjkosddfjskl!
so annoyed.

now what uni is gonna take me?!
haha awwww (:

home is anywhere with you♥

you're the only thing keeping me breathing.
sorry for not blogging as much as i used to!
i have so much work to do nowadays!

back up in norfolk and yesterday wasn't amazing.
joey said to mum "wai man and tim were kissing in the lift"
or something, maybe it was when we were in hk?
iunno, but mum randomly went,
"JOEY, WHAT DID YOU SAY WAI MAN AND TIM WERE DOING?"
and joey obviously answered. my god.

daddy doesn't mind about him,
but mum's blanking me now, and i cba.
she hasn't even paid me or karman for yesterday.
and it was super busy as well.

so if she's gonna take the piss because she can,
then i will too, i'm afraid.

this is why i hate coming home.
because then i reallise why i hate coming home so much!

to do list:
personal statement
curriculum vitae
maths homework
economics essay
ucas application
pack clothes for tomorrow (half done -
just need to put the clothes in a bag lol!)

Tuesday 14 September 2010

沒有心情。。

when i woke up this morning, it was so hot.
but when i realised that you weren't beside me,
it was suddenly a whole lot colder.

started off the day with two hours of nothing.
then psychology with a new teacher 
who could literally talk the class to sleep!
two hours of that, mm lovely eh.

then maths.
"if you walk in with a D from AS,
then there is no way we can predict you
higher than a grade C.."
well that's uni out the window.

"that's just life.. you'll have to learn
to face the consequences in adult life."
fxck you.

at least i have you in my life.
but it doesn't even feel like i have you,
because when you're in hemel/hatfield,
everything goes back to just texting.
and even with just that, i'm lucky to get a reply.

i know it's selfish.
but i hate it when, someone needs you; you're there for them.
but when i need someone.. where are they?

Monday 13 September 2010

i miss you already♥

tim took me and karman to school today :)
and he didn't end up having to go to work.
but he did end up going to hatfield just now..
gnor duu mm seung kui tzow! :(

karman's been crying all night.
blates she's going to get puffy eyes tomorrow!
gavin's starting to reeeally annoy me now!

i miss you already.
and you've only just left.


Sunday 12 September 2010

celebrating eight months! (: ♥

starting from today, karman and i are staying at tim's :)

went out to china town and covent garden to
celebrate our eight months together!
ooh, i discovered the jubilee market today :o
had a little spicy eating competition over dim sum!
and then tim put chilli in my mouth so i lost! T__T

we finally took photobooth pictures!