Wednesday 21 September 2011

when i win the lottery..

my boyfriend took me to forever 21 for the first time the other day
and i literally fell in love with almost everything in the store!
the accessories are so adorable and their shoes are beautiful!
but because uni is just around the corner and money is tight,
i decided to make a wishlist on here hahaa ;p
for some odd reason, it's really therapeutic..

- forever 21 diamond knuckle ring
- white v-neck long sleeved heattech (mens!)
- white denim shorts
- denim jacket
- grey long sleeves sweater
- suede ankle boots
- grey/pink pencil skirt
- white silk scarf
- pink silk scarf
- snood!
- chanel bag!!

please give me a job at uni!!

moving OUT.. moving IN! ♥

i'm moving into uni this saturday! eeeep! can't wait! ^^
although moving out of home is very exciting,
i think there's a little part of me that will miss home :(
it's not the first time i lived without my parents/family,
but it's the idea of finally learning to be a real independent lady!

like before, i'd be fed and sheltered by my family one way or another,
but moving into university is like having a taste of what life really is like
without the full support you usually get as a kid (before you turn 18!)
kind of support includes financially and emotionally :)

even though i know i will have a wonderful time at university
with my boyfriend and friends and lots of people that i'll meet..
your family is still your family at the end of the day so of course
i'll miss my mum nagging at me (to an extent) and my dad's laughter
along with all three of my sister's chitter-chatter hahaa (:

i'm definitely calling them up at least once every two days
and i wanna be able to send pics or webcam with them every now and then :)
that way, at least i get to see them or hear their voices lols ;p

gonna miss you guys! 

i'm on my twelfth bag and still packing!
♥ ♥ 

Monday 12 September 2011

why can't i make you happy..?

drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain
kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain
i don't know what to do anymore..
if i don't deserve you, and you deserve better..
the answer's simple: i leave you for you to find your happiness.
but i don't want to.. this is so selfish of me, but i don't want you to go.
i want you to be able to have the love and happiness you deserve,
i'm just disappointed because i know it's not with me.

i get so annoyed over everything you say or do.
i don't listen and i'm stubborn and selfish.
i never take your feelings into consideration,
you're right.. it's almost always about me and how i feel
and what i wanna do and where i wanna go.

i'm sorry..
i don't know what to say other than that.
and the thing is, we both know that that alone isn't enough.
words mean nothing when there is no action.
apologising is useless if there is no change.
and we both know that for someone with a personality like me,
it's almost impossible to become a better person.

i've tried. i really did.
but i guess it was nowhere near enough.

what's wrong with me?!
just thinking about my own character
gets me so angry at myself.
god help me, if that's even possible.

Friday 9 September 2011

herts here i come! woop woop!! ♥ ♥ ♥

so i did the craziest thing yesterday morning..
i gave a really big yawn and my jaw clicked ==
and then the right hand side of my face start swelling up
aaaaall the way around my cheek and my ears lol
so now i'm on liquid ibruprofen and i'm not allowed to yawn  :(
i have to physically close my chin to stop yawning hahaa

summer's almost over, uni's coming up!
i forgot and didn't have time to rave to you about uni!
i got BBB which got me into my first choice - herts!!
mr cheshire even tried saying that it got me into my second choice ==
i was like, NOOOOOOOOOO IT'S HERTSSSS!! hahaa

went to sheffield for a weekend with tim from the 26/08/11 - 27/08/11..
martin's parents were soo nice! and it was fun ;p
i wanna get a dog like them now lols it'd be nice to have one :)

just wish uni would hurry up and start already!!
although money is gonna be a problem..
cos i gotta get more driving lessons too :(
and then there's books and food etc..
rent is soo expensive! it's more than my tuition fee lol
so i gotta get a job alongside uni :)
driving test on the 1st of november! eek!