snowed again! absolutely freezing.

i was so out of it today.

tim called me last night when he was drunk.

he confessed his feelings again and this time,

he said everything he wanted and needed to say.

they were the longest 80 minutes ever.

during the whole conversation, all i could do,

was apologise and hope he would break the ice.

but he was showing me how much pain he felt and

how rejected he felt because i didn't love him

the way he loved me and the way he wanted me to.
i have never seen him so hurt before.

i have never seen him put so much effort into anything

in the whole three years i have known him.

i have never seen him love someone this much,

which makes it so difficult for me.

"i love you and your imperfections."

i really didn't know what to say.

he just kept swearing and cursing everything.

i felt so guilty, and he continuously asked me,

if i was sure i "truly" did not like him.

if he had asked me this a few weeks ago,

he would have gotten the answer he wanted.

i'm not giving him a "i hope we can still be friends"

or a "goodbye" because he deserves better than that.

"something's bothering you, tell me.

your smile isn't meeting your eyes."

ally said that to me today lol.

all i could think was, "well, my best friend told me he loves me,

i spoke to a guy who i don't usually speak to,

saying how i wanted to get a belly button piercing,

and he basically told me i was fat.

babes, i feels like shxt."

but why burden my friends with my troubles?

it's time i grew up and learned to handle my problems, myself.

你聽我說，我們的秘密。

tim just told me he likes me wor..

我不知道該怎麼辦。

我有一個男朋友。但是他在holland。

and我想放棄。

因為我開始jor一小小喜歡tim。

對不起。

事實上，當我和我的以前的男朋友分手，

我已經開始喜歡他。

但是我想清楚，我不喜歡他，

因為我需有一個rebound。

不過，如果我喜歡他。。

then, josh是不是rebound？

tim告訴我和他answer truthfully。

老實說我可能喜歡他。

blogger，我和你說，是我們的秘密！

longchamp, you are my love.

i do it because i can.

i can because i want to.

i want to because you said i couldn't.

second day of school and it's getting exciting.

WOHAA team was going to give up but,

we decided to fight, woo!

we have three ideas so far:

- the student/teacher event

- speed dating

- valentine's newsletter!

i can't wait!

spent the evening with kit after school,

so nice catching up with him and for once,

being the one to help solve rather than complain.

i've realised that i should be more of a listener,

than a complainer in life lol.

hopefully seeing him on friday too.

got a new longchamp le pliage yay!

this time i've gone for a red ;D

life isn't all too bad.

zak is still helping me with maths - as always.

ally is always the charismatic flirt.

tasnia is still the bestie.

♥

buffbuffbuff! ♥

gonna watch last one standing
♥

kevin cheng is so buff!
♥

third day of 2010, i hate it already.

i'm having the worst day ever.
and it's only half past seven in the morning.
was in bed at 10:30pm but didn't sleep until 3am!

i was actually fully awake and i think i was hungry lol.

my retarded cousin kept wandering around too.

blates wanted to jack something from our bags.

now i am so tired and i feel exhausted.

slept for four hours and kept waking up too.
my eye bags are heavier than my shopping bags,

and i had the most painful zit that appeared overnight.

refused to leave the house until i popped it, no joke!

worst morning ever.

eurgh, third day of january and it feels terrible.

apparently if you start the year terrible,

it's supposed to mean a wonderful year overall!

it better be true.