just cannot be fxcked with fmsprg.

you feel like shit today, well guess what?
you're human, not shit.
karman said something to me today which made me feel wierd.

she said she loves formspring because she can say things

to people in her school that she wouldn't say to their faces.

i said that's the reason i don't like formspring,

because a lot of people say things to me that they wouldn't

even dare to say to my face in sixth form.

and she just replied, "oh well, it's just courtney."

thing is, people might be bxtches and

everyone else may never understand why.

but there is always a reason behind everyone's personality.

one thing i bet karman doesn't know is about that girl's background.

i was her form monitor for a year and during that year,

she shared a lot with me as she broke into tears.

but what is said between me and her, stays between us.

i respect that.

but here i am, hearing how my thirteen year old sister

is calling her a 'slut' and a 'sket' anonymously on formspring

makes me want to slap some sense into her.

and for the people who keep commenting

on my formspring anonymously with hateful comments.

i've said this before, and i'll say it again.

i would love for you guys to say it to my face.

see you on monday guys.

some people need to grow the fxck up and realise,

just because you have sex, it doesn't make you a slut.

just because you stand up for yourself, it doesn't make you a bxtch.

just because you're confident, it doesn't make you conceited.

just because you're young, doesn't mean you can't fall in love.

so stop judging, and get to know me.

♥

100% trust. 200% love♥

and i trust you 100%.

even though half-terms feel like you've gone

to the other side of the world

and there's no such thing as phones.

sometimes i feel like you've forgotten about me.

but then i think, "there's no way that could happen.

every time he pulls out a cigarette, he probably sees

a very terrifying looking wife in his face."

♥

i know youloveme, i know youcare♥

please darling, just show love or hate.

because all i need is passion, be my inspiration.

today you said to me you felt weird,

and when i asked why, you said,

"because you don't think i love you."

i love you.

i know you love me too.

and just because we have silly little arguments

about other guys who might like me,

or other girls that you have flirted with,

at the end of the day, who cares.

i remember when we were at uni,

and yaseen said there was a hot new viet hairdresser.

you said you could probably chirps her,

and andrew and everyone else in the room went,

"oooh, are you gonna take that wai man?"

but i just smiled when you looked at me.

you said, "but everyone knows, i love wai man."

so little things like that don't actually bother me.

we're both madly in love with each other,

and things like chirpsing girls and chatting to guys

is nothing compared to us.

it just makes our relationship more exciting.

i love you, and i can't wait to be in your arms again -

which better be soon or i'm gonna have to break some laws.

.

♥

psychologypsychologypsychology!

when i get married, i don't want to look

at my significant other and think,

"Great. I'm stuck with you for another 50 years."

i want to look at him and think,

"50 years is not enough."

woke up at 10ish and i didnt get up till about 11,

was revising everything i'd memorised in bed haha

it's actually super comfy!

got up and started revising, my head is going to explode! :(

took a few breaks every now and then -

i don't think i should turn on my computer if i have a break.

everyone went to bury again,

mum and dad sorted out the bank thing

so now the account is under my name instead of dad's.

and karman got chantel's birthday present!

a violin necklace and violin earrings lol.

they came back and mum made like, a million phone calls

and then karman, chantel, joey and dad went swimming.

was re-watching gossip girl but i was watching it

on megaupload and after however-many-minutes,

you can't watch anymore until another hour or something

so i started watching aishiteruze baby!

it's actually super good!

gonna go and revise more now,

only friday and saturday left for psychology,

economics and chemistry!

fxckfxckfxck!

and i've got such dark eye bags now,

which means i probably need days worth of sleep

before it goes back to normal!

ALL MY HARD WORK BEFORE IS GONE! T__T

i miss you so much,

going a day without hearing your voice..

is like waiting for rain in a draught.

we didn't speak at all yesterday,

please remember to call.

♥

curly wurly earrings! ♥

All the things that I need

All the things that you need

You can make it feel so real

Cause you can't deny

You've blown my mind

When I touch your body

I feel I'm losing control♥

woke up early to try and change the savings account thing,

but apparently i needed daddy's id so i'll have to do it later.

got some new earrings finally!

it was either super small or super big hoops though :(

so decided to try the curly ones :)

started revising a bit of psychology,

attachment topic is actually quite easy.

memory is gonna be a bit of a 'eurgh' :/

and research methods is included in both

and it's so boring, it sucks. big time.

i really miss you.

i can't wait till i next see you!

and i'm so glad that things were okay yesterday.

you don't know how much that made my day,

probably not as much as it made yours though.

i hope that means less weight on your shoulders,

and more time for smiles - even if you do have

an endless list of worries and stressors.

i love you.

♥