everything will be okay♥

it's like i'm trying so hard,

to bite back the tears

because you've always relied on me

and i always say that everything'll be okay.

best friends will always be best friends.

♥

that's just how we work after all♥

when a tornado meets a volcano

all i know is i love you too much

to walk away now

even though we were on holiday together for a few weeks,

we still argued just as much as we would if we were in london.

maybe that really is just us.

i'll tell you the truth.

honestly, i think that each summer, is like a trial for every couple.

because these six to eight weeks could change everything.

couples break up at the start of summer, to find summer love.

and couples break up at the end of summer,

where new guys and girls will come into the picture

and maybe new feelings will waver.

for me, this trip together, was a trial for me and you.

we argue so much on a daily basis, and i'm still human.

so at times, i have my doubts.

and there have been times where i am so close

to making the wrong decisions and losing everything i have.

there was one point during this holiday,

where you held me at gunpoint.

to the point where, i could just collide my knees

with the concrete floor in your mid-sentence.

because i honestly thought, i couldn't take it anymore.

but just like always, you always show me that you're still there.

and that the person i love, is still standing beside me.

you come back with the most perfect timing.

where i start to doubt, if all this pain and drama, is worth it;

you show me that every millimetre is worth us.

♥

a fishy slap.

so we burst into colors, c o l o r s and carousels

fall head first like paper planes in playground games

you are and will forever be my best friend.

nothing is ever going to change that.

not even stupid cheshire and anson put together.

if they reject you, i'll slap them with a fish.

♥

i'm still here for you, don't forget that♥

promise me you’ll never forget me

because if i thought you would..

i’d never leave.

i made a mistake this year and it fxcked me over, i'm not gonna lie.

i may have acted strong, but it was hard and it took a lot of effort.

and there was no way i could have done it alone.

i was so so so hoping, that this year would be different.

i was gonna make a fresh start - study hard, find a job and enjoy 6th form.

but now that i have found out that two of my really good friends

don't have the grades to stay at marylebone,

i don't really know what to do, to be honest.

tasnia got CCEE and even she doesn't know.

i pray to you God.

please don't take tasnia away from me.

without roaa is enough already.

and tasnia? she's like my blood.

i honestly don't know how next year will turn out.

but it doesn't mean i'm giving up,

it only means i'll try harder this time round!

♥

god i missed london! ♥

at times when you make it hard for me to breathe,

i remember every time you were there to save me.

at times when you make me feel like giving up,

i remember every time you pulled me back on my tippy toes.

got back on sunday night and been sleeping since then really!

had an on-and-off fever for the whole of yesterday,

and tummy pains today :(

i got BDDE haha -

psychology, eco and maths, and chemistry.

oh wells. i tried!

looks like me and tim missed a lot while we were away!

sean and shiok have officially broken up..

kit has a new girlfriend - a bak gwai! awww!

and roaa and anastasiya aren't coming back to marylebone.

:(

hong kong was alright - the hotel hostel was a bit shxtty.

so we never got to go to many places!

including ocean park and hong kong island and that! :(

no worries la~ we could always go next time i guess :)

i'll upload the photos later;

tim has them on his laptop!

and he's never been one to stick to deadlines after all.

♥