#pray for japan♥

you never know what tomorrow brings

the tsunami in japan really made me think..

what if i had been sleeping and i woke up, in a tsunami?

and what if i hadn't manage to say the things i wanted to say,

or do the things i wanted to do?

that could of been me, or you, or anyone who is reading this blog.

we are all so blessed to be alive and walking today.

although there are loads of loving couples around me,

there are also many couples who argue and fight over silly things.

that includes myself and my boyfriend.

sometimes i think we take life for granted.

i think.. you should live life as it comes.

when you come across those little jpegs and gifs saying,

"live every day as if it were your last" .. do it!

because you never know what tomorrow brings.

i think, my biggest regret in life would be

if my day ended with a horrible argument

with my parents, or my sisters, or my boyfriend..

and we never had the chance to tell each other

how much we really appreciated each other.

how much i really love you.

not one more, not one less :)

pray for those in japan;

♥

PB blazer oh please mummm! ♥

i wish i had unlimited money

to do unlimited shopping

so i'd have unlimited happiness

whoever said money can't buy you happiness

has obviously been shopping in all the wrong places!

besides, money can buy you good health, a good house etc..

and to an extent, i guess money can buy you friends haha

but never mind those things!

i don't need money to buy me friendsss..

but i wouldn''t mind money to buy good health

for my family and my boyfriend..

i think i'm having those

"wouldn't-it-be-great-to-be-born-rich" moments haha

i was gonna exchange the bag i got the other day

for this blazer than i found which I'M IN LOVE WITH!

i think it's one of those things where,

if i don't see it in real life, i'll soo regret not getting it!

but if i do see it, and it's horrible, then i'll get over it xD

so for now.. it's a definite must-have! 

please pleaseeee god give me another job!

i used to think paul's boutique was really tacky and cheap

but actually, some of their stuff is actually really cute! :)

the coat is really nice too!

but they're not out in stores yet :(

went today and apparently they're only out onlinee..

gonna save up loads after paying for my resits!

♥

can't wait for summer '11! ♥

hatinggggg on school right now hahaa

god i can't wait to get out of heree! uniiii♥

my boyfriend and i are okay now :)

we watched titanic on sunday and OMGGGG

i think it's the first time i've ever asked myself,

but.. "WAI MAN WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!?!" hahaaa ^^"

i cried like a million times from half way through the film ^^"

not gonna depress myself and you guys talking about school,

so let's talk about this summer and the end of year 13! WOO!

leaver's party is on the 27th may i don't think i'm going ><..

feels kind of weird cos i don't really jam with anyone there.

so maybe my boyfriend will take me clubbing that night ;)

this summer, i was kind of hoping

to go on a weekend trip or something with my boyfriend

to paris or venice (which is a bit too hopeful haha!)

but i think i'm going to work and save loads of monies!

so i have enough for uni and that xD

and then maybeee we'll go to paris during winter

cos it sounds superrr romantic! heheheeee ^^

and then venice next summer woooo!

hopefully we'll go to thorpe park and a few beaches this summer!

♥

沒有你就是沒有幸福♥

今天，我感到很孤獨。

自己一個人上學。

自己一個人吃三明治。

回到家，都是自己一個人躺在床。。

其實自己一個人是沒有個溫暖的感覺。

如果我說我今天一次都沒有想起你

我是說一個很大的謊言。

因為今天，每秒，每一分鐘，

我都有想起你。

當我開始想起你，

我的眼就會有眼淚。

因為我真的想告訴你，

我從來沒有掛住一個人麼多。

沒有你在我的身邊，愛著我，

我真的不知道該怎麼做。

♥

fuck school, fuck everything.

oh yeah, i fucked up in my AS resits again.

i was so close to crying in front of the class,

but someone else did and she made me think,

god i'd look ridiculous if i cried.

so i didn't.. but i really wanted to.

i tried so fucking hard, and in the end,

it was a waste of fucking time and money.

this is all so stupid!

i hate school. fuck a levels.

fuck university and having a 'future'

fuck everything.

i hate the world.

and i hate you god (if you exist)

for being so fucking hard on me.

i don't know what i've ever done to deserve all this shit.

i didn't ask to be sexually harassed and raped by my cousin.

i didn't ask to be forced in sex and end up having an abortion.

i didn't ask to be bulimic my whole teenage life.

i didn't ask to have friends that would walk out on me.

i didn't ask to be a shit girlfriend who depressed her boyfriend.

i didn't ask to be so fucking useless for fucks sake.

life is so fucking fucked up!

and for the second time in my life,

i actually don't feel like living anymore.

call me a quitter, but living is so tiresome

when you take everything on yourself.

i used to be able to do that, until i met had you.

and now i don't even have you.

so why live breathe.