if only you loved me for ME.. :(

I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. 

I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. 

But if you can't handle me at my worst, 

then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

it's true.. this is how i am and who i am.

i'm stubborn and i like to voice my opinions.

if i have a suggestion, i'll suggest it.

if i'm upset, i'll say so.

if i don't agree, i'll argue.

i'm fed up of trying to impress,

if you can't love or accept me for who i am,

then i'm sorry i can't change your mind.

♥

nicky clarke heated rollers review ♥

the heat rollers heated up pretty fast although the manual said it'd take 10 minutes..

they work pretty well on the hair but it was burning my ears

when i left them in to work for about 10 minutes ><

and it was hard to get the ends of the hair in the roller as well

but i've found a tip to solve that! (using a tissue to wrap the ends)

gives me really nice natural curls which chantel said makes me look "mature" haha ;)

thank you chantel for this christmas present!

plus all the other presents i got!

♥

this christmas 2011.. ♥

it's the most beautiful time of the year

lights fill the street, spreading so much cheer

i should be playing in the winter snow

but imma be under the mistletoe♥

joey woke us up at 10am this morning haha

but we spent over an hour prettying ourselves up ^^

mum and dad went to pick up grandma in london

cos she suddenly decided she wanted to come up..

she said she wanted to come up for christmas on thursday

and then changed her mind on friday..

and then on saturday night, she decided she wanted to come ==

we took turns to open our presents in a circle (joey's idea!) 

and i got quite a lot of presents this year :)

i got.. a triple barrel waver from karman (and an a&f jumper in the post)

a curling wand, heat rollers, a book and wedge boots from chantel :)

a flask from joey and a new pair of fuggs from mum lols

and dad just gave us money cos he didn't know what to get xD

chantel also got me and tim a stain remover LOL!

just tried out the rollers and they give me natural curls!!

♥

carmen's 18th birthday! ♥

a stranger stabs you in the front,

a friend stabs you in the back;

a boyfriend stabs you in the heart,

but best friends only poke each other with straws♥

last weekend it was carmen's 18th birthday party,

and she went clubbing for the first time! :)

i dressed up as goldilocks at the karaoke

and carmen was wearing a kimono haha

everyone else snaked it!! no one else dressed up :(

tim and kit suited up ;)

low gong looked so sexy!! ♥

afterwards, she kept saying how she never knew

that there would be so many 'weird people' ..

kinda made me wonder if she meant it in a bad way

or if she just didn't expect to get that much attention in a club ==

she was super pretty that night though so i'm not surprised ;p

kinda feels nice to go clubbing with pretty girls

cos all the weirdos back off you hahaha xD

but when they're prettier than you, then you feel ugly! :(

the girls..

the guys..

me and BB♥

ho zee mui♥

in the club! piccadilly institute!

it was an amazing night out ^^

♥

2 more sleeps to go!! ♥

don't you worry your pretty little mind

people throw rocks at things that shine

and they can't take what's ours♥

so i'm back for christmas which is like 2 and a half weeks :)

i'm retaking my driving test at the beginning of january!

and this time, i'm not telling everyone the date!! ;p

i so hope i pass! wish me luck!! ♥

i've been spending all my money on christmas presents

so i'm like BEYOND broke hahaha ^^"

and my phone bill came to £126.. £90 more!! eep! :(

paid for that and now i'm working my ass off!

i signed up for a modelling thingy last night with the help of lily :)

i probably won't even get one call from them hahaha

but it's worth a try! especially if you can make money with your clothes ON! ;)

it's almost mine and tim's two years anniversary!!

i'm so excited!! i'm planning it and tim's planning valentines ^^

been going crazy with ideas hahaha hope he likes when i've planned! ;p

can't wait till christmas! ♥

only this year, i'm not spending it with tim :(

wish it didn't have to be like that!

but it's my fault so gotta face the consequences LIKE A MAN!

LOL this cheered me up.. GUTTED!!

♥