there's a reason as to why girls are weaker.
so that they can find a guy to protect them.
even if you find a girl who's black belt and all,
every girl wants a guy that can protect them.
i used to think, i don't need a guy to save me!
and i don't want someone that i'll end up relying on.
and whenever people worried about me,
or whenever i was faced with a situation
where actually, i might have needed some help,
i would still be cocky and say i could handle it.
and then i met him.
he worried about me.
no one had ever worried about me like that before.
i still told him, "it's fine. i can protect myself"
but actually, when it came to situations where
violence wasn't involved, and i was still open to harm,
i was kind of scared.
like on our birthday karaoke.
i don't remember the last time i was that scared.
even though nothing happened on that night,
i just wanted to bury my face in your shoulder.
and it was then i realised.
you can't do everything yourself. especially if you have him.
and saying that i can, must have made him feel insignificant.
because he's there to help me, and he's there to protect me.
i always watch animes like maid-sama,
where the guy always risks his own safety for hers.
and i think, "i wish there was someone like that for me!"
someone to dive in and take the blow of the fall before i do.
someone to save me from creepy people.
someone to love me enough to want to protect me.
but it made me realise how selfish that was of me.
"how can you ask for someone to take your blow?"
you can't be that selfish in life!
be happy you have someone to love you.
tim wong.
thank you, for being there.
for always being there when i need help.
and for catching me when i fall.
♥
