i'm in a disney mood~! ♥

oh can you feel the love tonight

this is where we are

tim stayed the night on sunday and on monday(:

because i left my purse in his coat kekeke >D

school photos on monday~!

i think i blinked on my individual photo lols

hopefully its not too bad and i can buy it this year :)

tim bought me a mascara and a nail filer yesterday!

awww, he's so adorable ^^

me, karman, tim, martin and auntie had dinner at cafe rouge;

the bill was over £90! :o thank god martin and auntie had coupons!

had a blood test today,

and thank god everything else is basically fine *pheww*

now my arm is like DEAD haha and i can't do any work!

><

♥

karman bought me macaroons! ♥

she was getting fed up of my macaroon obssession.

and actually.. the chocolate one tastes reeeally nice!

♥

argh decisions!

so how do you choose between one of your christmas traditions,

and an old friend that you haven't seen in a long time?

and the chances of you seeing her is very minimal?

but then you have to wait till next year for your tradition?

crxp.

♥

christmas lights tomorrow!

every year, marylebone high street have christmas lights :)

and the countdown starts between 3:30pm - 6:30pm.

i don't think they actually count down till about 6 though..

apparently it's the most romantic thing!

i go every year, and just before the count-down,

or during the count-down, couples are holding hands

and gazing into the beautiful night sky together..

and every year, i'm just enjoying the moment

with my camera as everything is just so expensive there,

and a packet of doritos (maybe some chocolate coins).

but this year.. this year, i wanted to go with you.

but that's quite alright :) and i think..

i'm supposed to be meeting rachel anyway -

if she's feeling "up to it" of course ==

one more month till christmas! wooo!

♥

christmas list this year! :)

dad:

fake iPad tablet.

mum:

mobile.

hair dye?

chantel:

curler.

karman:

river island hat.

joey:

something to do with

horses/dogs/cats/rabbits?

tasnia:

make up voucher?

jintana:

uniqlo voucher?

soeng ha:

artbox?

♥

i want macaroons this xmas please(:

sometimes you have to let things go so

you have room for better things to come in.

a friend of mine had finally broken up with her bxtch of a boyfriend.

recently, he'd been insulting her and saying things with the intention

to make her feel insecure and unloved.

so many girls hold onto guys who don't can't give them

the lifetime of happiness that they deserve.

no one should ever have to deal with someone

telling them that they're fat or ugly or whatever

- especially if that person is supposed to love you,

for who you are.

maybe because at times (usually at the start)

we are oblivious to the idea that we deserve better,

and we choose to ignore the advice of our friends.

i can't say much to be really honest.

my fiance isn't like all the other creeps out there,

but there have been times that he's made me feel insecure.

even little things like, when he says i should start exercising,

i know that's the signal to start cutting down on those custard creams.

and when he points out that i wear too much make up,

it doesn't seem a lot to me because unlike megan fox,

i have to make an effort to look relatively presentable.

and when things i wear don't suit, he'll point it out.

one thing i'll never wear in front of him again? tracksuits.

i'm not going to lie, i have never felt so insecure in a very long time.

but we're both humans,

and no one's perfect.

people say,

if you can't love yourself,

you can't love anyone else.

i say, if you're in love with yourself,

you won't have enough to love someone else.

if you don't love yourself,

that's why you have that someone to love you.

god i am going to be so upset

if these taste horrible! ><

hopefully, jintana's buying them for me for christmas!

yayyy(:

♥

sleepy, lazy and fat.

some things are better left

undone, unsaid and unknown.

seeing roaa today was great of course,

but whenever i see her, she always has to throw the

"oh, you've gained some weight again honey?

i can see it in your cheeks/tummy/face/ALL OVER YOU"
"where have your shoes gone, Miss Heels?"
"aww you look so TIRED and DEAD honey.."

beauuuutiful.

looks like my fiance wasn't kidding

when he said i should start running again.

reeeally cannot be bothered with school! :(

went to yum char with daddy today

and bought a box of noodles from see woo.

although i normally sleep around 10,

i've been recently starting to feel super sleepy!

need to go to new look and do something

about the silly coat of mine!

as much as i love it.

:'(

got soo many things to do!

completely forgot that i had re-sits this january!

back to september "WAKE UP" mode

and workworkwork again! :)

btw, me and tim went to paparazzi studio
for our 6 hour long photoshoot session!
and then we went to maxwells :)
all for our ten months!
superrr fun! beautiful memories♥

♥

happy ten months babycakes♥

happy ten months baby♥

we've been superrr rocky this month!

but in the end, we pulled through(:

you're always there to remind me

that you'll never give up on me

and that i shouldn't think too much

because when forever comes,

i'll know that we were worth it.

thank you for never leaving my side.

even when we're in angry mode,

and things are falling apart on my side,

you're still there to piece everything together.

i know sometimes most of the time,

it's difficult for you to help me with some things.

like when my friends and i are in a rough patch,

it's okay if you're just there, and we're not talking.

because honestly, when things like this happen,

i'd much rather just bury my head in your shoulder

whilst you stroke my hair and tell me

everything's going to be alright.

because with you by my side,

i know that even when there is no end,

everything will soon be okay.

thank you.

and happy ten months my husband-to-be♥

♥

it took me by surprise..

she hadn't been so scared in so long,

it actually scared her.

i haven't had the same nightmare in so long,

ever since i'd moved out of that house.

but it came back to me last night

and i found myself waking up at 5am

with tears i couldn't hold and shivers i couldn't control.

i couldn't do anything about it.

i couldn't fight back.

and instead of its' usual setting,

it was in this house now.

that's what scared me even more.

like..

no matter how far you run,

you can't hide.

happy 300 days baby! ♥

happy 300 days baby(:

i think.. these past 300 days with you,

have been the most indescribable 300 days

in my entire seventeen years.

we've argued like there's no tomorrow,

but before the day ends, we make sure that

the other person knows that they're still loved

(just in case, there is no tomorrow of course.)

we've spent a holiday together for almost a month,

and even in hong kong, we still argued.

i guess we've come to realise that arguing

in general is a part of our individual personalities,

which has become a part of us.

not arguing would be nice of course,

but it'd be slightly weird.

i didn't manage to tell you this the other day, but;

thank you for never letting me go, and never giving up on us.

i don't care if there are a million guys queueing up to be my bodyguard,

nor do i care (as much) if there are a million girls queueing up for you.

because like you always say, at the end of the day, we're still together.

and the reason why we're still together is because i love you, and you love me.

and everything that we pull through together,

just makes us even stronger.

i hope it stays that way for as long as we live(:

♥