why is it always so hard to be HAPPY?!

me and my boyfriend had an argument again

and it wasn't really an argument cos it doesn't make sense!

he picked me up from work with rajiv and he dropped rajiv off home,

tim usually parks his car at rajiv's overnight so i asked him why we weren't parking up,

and he's like "i wanna go back to the library and do the work so i'm not stressing about it"

which doesn't make sense cos he's gonna have to move the car at like 4am..

i don't understand why you'd wanna be moving your car after an assignment

rather than being able to go home and sleep!

so i packed up food and shxt to visit him at the library

thinking he was stressing out about his work and that

but obviously he was having too much fun to even have the decency to let me know

that he was "hanging out with the lads" as he always fucking is.

so i fuck off home again after trekking in the cold and burning myself with tea!

and he's like "i'm pulling an all nighter"

i'm actually thinking, what the actual fuck.

if you know you have work, then learn to prioritise!

he can ALWAYS say no to me when he's got work to do,

but he can never say no to his 'lads' even if he has work to do.

just like tonight being the perfect example.

he would always prefer to be somewhere else with someone else.

and he complains about how i'm always busy and i don't spend time with him.

on tuesday, i gave up a lecture to have lunch with him

cos we haven't had lunch together in a while

he goes "yeah let's meet up for lunch, me and rajiv are hungry"

and instead he goes "i don't feel like forum food, me and rajiv are gonna eat somewhere else"

then on wednesday, i gave up the same lecture i was supposed to catch up on

and he goes "i'll go home with you to get some stuff cos i have loads of work to do

and then i'll go jam at rajiv's for a bit and meet my group"

he might as well go date rajiv for fucks sake.

cos i need someone to explain to me why i'm his girlfriend!

i'm always fucking home alone

and even if we both had free time,

he wouldn't choose to be alone with me!

i'm a moody little shit

but no one deserves to be treated like a doormat!

if you're reading this, have fun doing your "assignment"

and come back when you need something

cos otherwise, there's no other reason why you'd come back right?