24 hours.. missing you 24/7♥

the is the first time i've ever found myself close to crying

just because i miss someone i haven't seen in 24 hours

♥

awww gossip girl is baaack~! ♥

"i don't mean to take you for granted..

i think it's just, sometimes, i test you.

like if everything gets too hard,

maybe you'll back out and leave me..

but you never do."

♥

oh and queen maryyyy♥

queen mary was actually pretty nice inside

although i was hating it from the outside

from the moment me and tim got there haha(;

got a new iphone (again)

and it wouldn't work till i connected it to itunes

so mum couldn't get through me mwuahaha >D

their free sandwiches were soo niceeeee!

haha me and tim were taking loadssss

and the crisps and mars bars! ♥

the accommodation and the library looked pretty nice actually :)

was kind of hoping it was gonna look dead ugly!

because then i wouldn't have to be in the position i'm in nowww~

i'm torn between my two favourites BLAAAAAAHH!

god i wish my boobs did that hahaha

♥

seeing the light lols! ♥

I believe that a woman should view
make-up as a powerful tool
that can be used to enhance her best features,
give her confidence in the way she looks
and let her inner beauty shine♥
i've just finished school and i'm home now(:
and i am soo looking forward to spending the evening

with gossip girl, pretty little liars and the mentalist!

and i'll try fitting those assignments in haha(;

i woke up this morning and the zit that was sporting on my face

had decided to plant itself there, but EVEN BIGGER!

so i popped it and it was soo painful! T^T

and now it's going to scar for a long longg timeee~! *cries*

on the way home from school today,

i had like, some massive train of thought

where i decided to take on another perspective,

and it was kind of like, "seeing the light" haha

or "every cloud has a silver lining" or whatever ;D

like, my mum used to always force us to shower before dinner

every single bloody day after school, and even on weekends!

and i remember getting all angry cos i wanted to eat before bathing haha

and only now do i realise.. maybe she was just trying to teach us discipline?

or teaching us to discipline ourselves and have some order lol

and she did used to always say eating before showering makes you fat xD

or maybe it was just a thing she had lols who knows!

hmm.. next, my boyfriend.

my boyfriend and i had had a rough year

and we'd decided to really "work things out" -

so like, no more silly little arguments etc,

because arguments is one of our big things.

whenever we argued, even though he'd never say it,

actually.. i think most of the time, i start the arguments ==

even over the littlest things (maybeeee)

and when we argued recently, i remember him saying,

he thought this year would be different

(no more arguing and bickering etc)

and it made me think..

(okay this adds onto my thought)

considering everyone's saying 2012 is the end of the world,

say it is, then i don't wanna spend 2011 on a loose rollercoaster again,

and say it isn't, then i don't wanna be like that with him forever.

because if you love someone, you'd wanna see them smile;

you'd wanna be happy with them :)

sooo.. i guess i really am sorry.

and i can actually see some changes,

like, tum faan gnor and all ^^

but i don't ever want him to change completely,

and i hate seeing him unhappy.

so i think, less drama would be good haha(;

and well, this next topic is kind of touchy for me.

i'm actually really insecure (you may have already picked that up)

and although i don't show it, i've come to realise,

the more make-up you wear, the more insecure you are.

i wear a reasonable amount, but my boyfriend thinks i wear a lot.

i asked him to rate me yesterday hahaha

and he said i was an 8 or 9 with and without make-up

which kind of felt like he'd smashed a brick in my face.

because usually your boyfriend would be like "you're a 10 bla bla you're perfect"

haha but i guess my boyfriend's honest.

but then i thought "i'm nowhere near as pretty as the girl

he once rated a 9" - and he did say he never usually rated girls 9s,

so she really was good looking.

so that thought kind of felt like he'd stabbed my heart with a fork haha.

but today, i thought, i know i said i'd do this,

as it was one of my new years resolutions of 2011,

but i really am going to try to love myself more.

to try and look at the parts i hate, as something i should love

(if that even made any sense)

i know it's hard, because weight and appearance means a lot to girls,

but comparing and measuring myself to other girls

won't ever change who i am, and how i look like,

so i'll try and stop.

because my family loves me for who i am,

and for whom i've become (hopefully!)

and my parents watched me grow up :)

so there's no reason for me to change after all.

♥

hey leng luis of the world :D

if you're pretty, and you know my boyfriend

or my boyfriend knows/knows of you,

i don't care if you're the nicest little angel on earth;

i hate you already.

♥

queen mary on wednesdayyy!

open day at queen mary on wednesday!

wish it was today lol i only have psychology on wednesday!

♥

i don't care eh eh ehh eh ehhhh♥

stayed in london this weekend for amanda's birthday :)

me and tim went shopping for a bit on friday,

and then we went home to watch the mentalist, OH YEAHHHH!

and then we went to visit tim's grandma at st mary's~

met his cousins.. they're okay.

i've been having kfc like, everyday since last week lol!

and then we went and met kit and leyla,

my ankle was starting to hurt againnn! >

and then we decided to go to cafe rouge with

tim's mum and martin in the end ^^"

tim piggybacked me on that little road opposite topshop

all the way down to carnaby street, woooo~! was so fuuun~! ♥

martin and auntie went back to hemel on saturday morning.

and me and tim bummed around at home with the mentalist

and showered and all before meeting kit, leyla and abul in covent garden.

although we did have a little argument beforehand -

okay, it was little and then it got big.

went to h&m cos leyla needed flat shoes

and then we headed back to ctown for the karaoke.

it was soo dry at first! no one would loosen up haha

but amanda was hilarious! awww she's amazing♥

karaoke finished eventually, around midnight (started at 8)

and joshim was throwing up and andrew wouldn't stop talking

to raymond whilst raymond was getting vexed

cos we sneaked waaay too many bottles of alcohol in ==

at that moment in time, i was so glad

karman's selfish wishes weren't granted

and that my dad wasn't in that kind of business.

went to rainforest clubbbb! i didn't have ID

so i sneaked in with amanda's LOL although the guy was like

"NO MORE FUNNY BUSINESS" and all hahahaha

but it was fuuuun inside! i danced like a twatttt

but i spent the whole night with timmmm♥

left around 2:30am cos we couldnt be bothered to wait till 3

when the club finished apparently,

so we went and bought siew yook from hung's -

it was sooo salty! T^T

tim cooked gong jai meen ;D

and then we sleptttttt.

we only slept 5 hours and

we were wiiiide awake! o___o

spent sunday doing housework ;)

laundry and tim hooveredddd~!

and then took joey out to cake shop and troc!

GOD I'M SO BROKE NOW!

went out with kit and leyla again in troc

and met up with norman and carmen pat *winkwink*

wait for it.. AND ABUL! hahaa he's always the third wheel xD

awwwww! poor himmmm lols!

but carmen's really prettyyy~!

and we all know what tim loved about her haha

i'll tell you this now, i can't wear woolly/frilly stuffs

because i had big shoulders and a belly

so i look like a pregnant lady.

no discussion!

and bun whenever you want.

i dont really care anymore.

♥

can barely contain my excitement! ♥

WOOO! mum agreed to let me stay for this weekend! ^^

friday night with my baby and amanda's birthday on saturday! :)

I CAN'T WAITTT!

but i was totally unprepared for this, which is straaange!

because i almost always have clothes, money etc ready for a party! T^T

but now i'm gonna have to make do with clothes i already have! ;)

can't waaaaait~!

♥

you'll do amazing, baby♥

there's something about the way

the street looks when it's just rained

there's a glow off the pavement

you walk me to the car

and you know i wanna ask you

to dance right there

i was actually pretty proud of myself yesterday(:

i did all my homework and catch up for maths and stats in school

so i'd be freeeeee at home to watch glee with my boyfriend! ^^

it was actually a pretty good episode hahaa (;

my boyfriend has an exam today

and he's slightly nervous so lets give him a thumbs up! ^^

good luck timmmm! you'll do brilliantly, you always do :)

NO PRESSURE! haha kidding! you'll be fine, baby♥

hottie or cutie? ;) ♥

voice of a goddess, can dance to this flow

she be turning heads everywhere that she goes

she's my ipod, i got her on replay

you know how you get girls who are either cute or hot?

which would you rather be?

sounds greedy, but i soo wish i was both!

♥

今年真的會不同嗎？♥

the feeling when something hurts so much

that you can literally feel it in your chest.

those are the ones we don't regret.

昨天，大家都不開心呢。

不知道為什麼，但是一個很小的事情讓我很生氣。

可能因為我真的很累了。

其實我很幼稚。

有很多次我提醒我自己，

生氣都無用的。。生氣來怎麼樣？

它是一種浪費時間。

我們argue的時間，可以用來愛大家，不是嗎？

羅慧雯，你真的是一個傻瓜。

你可以告訴他為什麼你不快樂，

為什麼你要逃跑？！

其實一個小時後，我已經沒事的。

當我看到你，我真的非常很想擁抱你。

但是你看都不看我。

我想。。在那一刻時後，我的心都不跳了。

我們的世界都停止了。

♥

gar yow ah low gong BB! ♥

never expect, never assume.

because it's better to feel surprised

than to feel disappointed.

tim's busy revising tomorrow at ucl with norman,

so i guess it looks like hair-dye and take-out sunday can wait :(

i'm thinking i should probablyyy catch up on S2 and C4 i guess :/

maybe i'll shop for a few hours, haven't bought anything for myself in timeee!

♥

no more resitsssss! ♥

it's sweet when someone remembers
every little detail about you.
not because you keep reminding them
but because they pay attention.
last exam todayyy! S1! was harder than i thought..

only like two of the questions though ><
C2 on monday was alriiight, think i could've done better though!

and economics on wednesday was gooooood (:

went home and it was bloody raining..

AND THUNDERING AS WELL! ><
being outside with thunder is worse

than having a marshmallow shoved in my face! ><

went out to yum char with tim

and then set out to kings cross!

tim said he's gonna dye my hair for me on sunday! :)

and i think we're gonna get hair cuts too, woooo!

omg. some guy tried killing himself on the tracks

and everyone's trains were delayed by like 2 hours!

ours was delayed for like, an hour and a half ==

if only we took the train an hour beforeee! T__T

worked a little bit..

i'm exhausted so nighty nightttt! ^^

♥

happy one year baby! ♥

you never really know the meaning of true happiness,

until you meet the prince/princess in your dreams♥

yesterday was our one year anniversary (:

i didn't have time to blog because i was soo tired!

i had my C2 exam in the morning and tim walked me to school ^^

i think i could've done waaaay better, but there's no point now :(

lets hope i got at least a C! hahahaaa although a B would be nice!

met up with tim after the exam, at debenhams :)

was looking for a plate for tim's mum because i broke one ==

but it's soo hard to find a similar one!

because it's not ROUND or SQUARE, its like a V shape?

looks like those japanese/oriental ones.

went to foot locker and headed towards kfc at the plaza

'cause we were both starvingggg!

didn't end up properlyyyy shopping :(

went home and.. OPENED PRESENTS!

omgggg! tim bought me a lomography camera!

its sooo adorable! i love it to bits!

although i wish developing them were 10x cheaper haha

but it's the best gift anyone has ever given me :)

(other than my super cool iphone of course)

thank you low gong BB! ♥

we spent some time at home,

and we ended up slightly arguing.

because he was being a stupid ham sup low.

we 'kinda' watched the holiday - the one with cameron diaz!

and then we went out for a walk in covent gardennnn!

we went to tommy's rooftop because the view's so prettyyy!

well, usually it is hahaha but i think it was too dark >

tommy came out and took the photo for us with my new camera ;)

then we wandered around mango,

baaaasically criticising each other's style haha

then we went further down covent garden

and we couldn't work the webcams on the macs LOL!

they all said they weren't connected?! T____T

so we left and we flipped a coin..

HEADS was bella italia!

TAILS was maxwells!

*flip*

..tails!

we were gonna go in,

and then tim wanted to hear the dubstepping guy.

we ended up getting our pictures drawn! lol!

the guy was so rude to everyone hahaa

and he was like, "i chose you guys cos he's looks easy to draw!

and he's soo stylish!"

and i was like, ehh.. ==" and he went,

"oh you look good too."

HAHAHAHAAAAA gutted! T___T

we ate at maxwells!

tim got his usual steak, and he finished it!

i got the maxwells burger, omg it was massive!

everything was discounted cos it was "monday madness"

so that was goooood :)

then we went and took photobooth pics in like,

RECORD TIME! o_________o

i think it was cos we were both reeeally stuffed

and we just wanted to go home and lie down xD

hairsprayed our drawinggg.. oh, i paid him £5!

and i just realised how the portait isn't thaaat great lols oh wells!

we bummed around watching tv shows :)

TIM HAS A THING FOR GLEE NOW mwuahahaa

i think he has a thing for the big mouth girl lols!

watched a bit of tool academy as well,

but my eyes were drooooping, so we went to sleep :)

tim got hot at night so he slept in the living room :(

the bed was actually cold without him lol

the side he was sleeping on was freezing! >

i'm not gonna upload all the photos cos i am knackered!

and i have an economics exam tomorrow afternoon!

wish me luck! :)

♥