karma does get you back like a bxtch.

you know what's worse than failing your A levels

when you know you could've done better?

..when your best friend steals away your dream so easily.

that one ambition you finally realised you wanted to go for.

and that one chance you thought you had it all.

but it's slowly slipping away and you don't even realise it.

and when you do, it hits you smack bang in your face

and it's like your mind's telling you, "should've saw it coming."

i've come to realise that actually, we were like blair and serena.

you were always too afraid to do something that would outshine me,

even though you knew you could've done better.

i would always make it seem like the world revolved around me

and that regardless of what happens, it was alright

because i thought i was one of the top.

it sounds selfish,well.

but i wish things were back to the way it was.

where i got what i wanted and you supported me.

because then i wouldn't be in this situation now.

i really hit rock bottom this time.

and instead of standing up,

it feels like you're still standing on me.

and you won't let me stand up until you get to the top before i do.

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