fuck school, fuck everything.

oh yeah, i fucked up in my AS resits again.

i was so close to crying in front of the class,

but someone else did and she made me think,

god i'd look ridiculous if i cried.

so i didn't.. but i really wanted to.

i tried so fucking hard, and in the end,

it was a waste of fucking time and money.

this is all so stupid!

i hate school. fuck a levels.

fuck university and having a 'future'

fuck everything.

i hate the world.

and i hate you god (if you exist)

for being so fucking hard on me.

i don't know what i've ever done to deserve all this shit.

i didn't ask to be sexually harassed and raped by my cousin.

i didn't ask to be forced in sex and end up having an abortion.

i didn't ask to be bulimic my whole teenage life.

i didn't ask to have friends that would walk out on me.

i didn't ask to be a shit girlfriend who depressed her boyfriend.

i didn't ask to be so fucking useless for fucks sake.

life is so fucking fucked up!

and for the second time in my life,

i actually don't feel like living anymore.

call me a quitter, but living is so tiresome

when you take everything on yourself.

i used to be able to do that, until i met had you.

and now i don't even have you.

so why live breathe.