selfishness is harmful♥

see you had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heart
never really had luck, couldn't never figure out
how to love♥

i didn't really know how to start this blog post,

but i felt like i needed to say it, so here goes..

after speaking to my boyfriend about us

and why we were talking with such harsh tones,

i began to understand a lot of things.

although i knew that he'd changed

so that we'd have a smoother relationship,

but i never really took a moment to think

about how he'd changed and why..

(other than the obvious reasons of avoiding arguments)

sometimes, i even got angry when i felt like

he wasn't making any effort and i was trying too hard

when actually, he's been the one putting in effort 24/7

whilst i've stayed pushy and selfish..

it made me feel horrible when i realised

that he'd sacrificed a lot more for our relationship,

i felt like such a terrible girlfriend ><

i didn't even know what to say or how to face you, i'm sorry♥

i know you've been holding in your thoughts

and just agreeing with me so that we don't argue

but it shouldn't be like that..

you should be able to speak your thoughts

with the person you love♥

i'm sorry you couldn't, i feel so so so terrible.. >

please forgive me..

and if you can, tell me what's going on through your head,

open up to me, we can work things out♥

♥