transform his frown into a smile♥

if you've ever met my boyfriend, then you'd know,

he has a thing for transformers.

maybe not so much as he does for megan fox,

but he has a transformers tshirt he likes wearing

and walking into his best friend's dorms going,

"kkkk-kkkk-trans-formmmm"

and as stupid and silly as he looks,

he makes me smile, and i love him (:

♥

she's gonna wait for you now.

what you've got boy, it's hard to find.
i think about it all the time.
don't ever fall in love, tasnia.

it hurts more than giving birth,

makes you feel higher than you would be on cocaine,

then it makes you cry a fucking tsunami.

it fucks you over and over again.

♥

我可以什麼都不要。。我要你愛我♥

now and forever you are still the one,

in my heart♥

我看過我的朋友，Yobi的blog.

她說她要每個女生的理想男友..

老實說，我也想，但是我的男朋友不是這樣的.

我不是不開心，但是如果我的男朋友

會做這些事情的一半，我會更開心.

1.朦朧醒來回你信息..

2.半夜裡接你的電話..

3.告訴你——到家了就發消息給他..

4.你半夜睡不著發消息給他..他會陪你聊天..

5.雨天..同撐一把傘..他衣服的一半是濕的..

6.不論走到哪裡..都一直拉著你的手..

7.願意吃你吃不下的東西..

8.從來不遲到..你遲到他不會生氣

9.不論去哪裡..他都會來接你..無怨無悔..

10.不亂花錢..但肯為你花錢..

11.擁抱很久..很緊..

12.記得你說過的所有事..

13.輕輕擰開你擰不開的汽水瓶..

14.突然很想你..

15.常常给你留言..

16.不舒服時..他會很擔心很著急..

17.吵架时不会一走了之

18.他錯了會認錯..你錯了不會怪你..

19.會無條件地哄你..放下面子..

20.從不忍心責備你..無條件包容你..

21.會一直保護你..害怕你受一點點委屈..

22.你說笑話他會笑..會覺得你很可愛..

23.比你高..

24.會一個人安靜地思考..但決不冷漠..

25.許多方面都很厲害..讓你崇拜..

26.會一直誇你..給你鼓勵..

27.不對你隱瞞什麼..

28.百分百信任你..

29.不花言巧語..

30.不會因為玩遊戲而忽略你..

31.不抽煙少喝酒..

32.有活動安排事先和你打招呼..

33.和朋友出去時..要想著你..

34.重大的事情和你商量..

35.和大人在一起像大人..和孩子在一起像孩子..

36.喜歡你..從未猶豫..不拿你和別的女孩子比較..

37.從未想過離開你的世界..

38.你買給他的東西他都會喜歡..

39.對女孩子有風度..也有距離..

40.認識你的一些好朋友..拜託她們照顧你..

41.瞭解你的煩惱與困惑..不厭其煩地傾聽..

42.很少讓你哭..你哭的時候會很心疼..

緊緊地抱住你.. 告訴你都是他的錯..

43.可以隨時找到他..

44.靠在他肩膀的時候很安心..

45.和他在一起有種溫暖的感覺..

46.計畫的未來裡..你是重要的一部分..

很多requirements是不是?

你知道我不會問那麼多.

可是, 我想你做不到一半這些事情

因為你不是這樣的.

我不介意你吸煙或喝酒,

我不介意你和其他女孩text,

(也許有—點)

但是有一件事情我想要的，

我們每次見面，我希望你不會遲到.

please.

♥

she's still real, i wish i was her.

looking at your old phone wallpaper,

and thinking, "i wish that was me."

say she's the past and say i'm 'real',

but so is she, and i wish i was that girl.

i hope everything goes well next tuesday.

everyone deserves a second chance.

if i got a second chance, so do you.

and it would break my heart to see you

like i did today.

like you once said..

if you don't make mistakes,

how are you going to learn right?

we all do a lot of things we regret,

but once again, the words from your mouth;

life's too fast for regrets.

if i could, i wish all of your burdens

and bad thoughts that don't belong in your mind,

could all be passed onto me.

i hate not being able to do anything

and just watching stuff like this happen..

i hate not being able to do anything

about people i love.

for now, please always remember,

that i am here for you, and i love you.

♥

look! your webcam loves you too♥

as we grow up, there are less people
who are there for you.

as we grow older, there are even
fewer people there for you.

but i promise you,
no matter how crxp the situation is,

i will be there for you, baby♥

woke up in the morning and bumped into alex cheung!

so random, i didn't even recognise him at first lol;

took him to kit's and went to school to revise economics.

economics test wasn't that bad.. okay, it was actually quite bad!

i only just thought of the correct best possible answers

i could've given and i basically would've gotten full marks! :(

- in a few questions lols.

went back to aunt's to eat after the exam,

and went back to meet tim at his in ctown.

stayed at home today because he was super tired..

to be honest, when i don't see him for like, a week..

i realise that his skin gets better, a lot better.

maybe 'cause he's less stressed and he actually gets more sleep.

watched a knight's tale and just talked~

ate dinner at tim's and just got home now.

thankfully, things with chantel have picked up,

and i'm glad i did something that could fix things.

hopefully, it won't happen again because i really

don't want to have to do er, things.

i love you ah mui♥

my contacts were soo hard to take out!

the one on the left was so dry it was like STUCK to my eye

and it was so painful trying to take it out!

i even cut the nails of my thumb and first finger ==

my god. it felt like i was pulling my eye out!

stole tim's tshirt and mum's picking me and karman up

tomorrow morning 'cause she needs to buy stock too.

kinda wished mum picked us up tonight; i'd rather be home.

i'm so tired.

like, super super tired.

i know, i sleep like 7 hours and i complain,

and some of us *coughcough* don't sleep and drive

for longer than a plane flight to china and they can still hack it.

but exams are actually killing me and i'm dreading results day.

i don't want to have to re-take everything that took me a year.

i don't want to have a uni application filled with "pending" grades.

some messed up future ahead of you, missy law.

but it's okay.

just like, if i didn't have any friends, or anything left,

it's okay. as long as i have you in my crummy life,

i can still 'hack' it.

oh yeah, that's the tshirt i stole off him (:

♥

永遠是你的大姐。♥

friends forever, sisters for life.

had my S1 exam today which wasn't as bad as C1 - surprisingly.

went up to hatfield after the exam and got there at 11:30am.

bummed around in uni with tim, bana, omar, heren and morgan -

ate at the forum and then stayed at heren's

whilst the guys played games and i plaited attempted to plait tim's hair -

which is like, totally close to impossible.

went back to hemel and watched a bit of

van wilder lols it's like a copy of american pie!

tim went up to sleep for about two hours

whilst i cooked my first ever meal!

spaghetti and vegetables -

i know, it doesn't sound amazing

but it was actually amazing for me

to cook without anything burning!

will upload photos soon (:

chantel called me up crying about something

happening to her at school and i wanted to tell her,

that actually.. right now and a few months ago,

i went through the same thing, so i do understand.

but i didn't, and instead i spoke to the girl causing the problems.

hopefully thing's will pick up soon.

i hate watching my sister's upset.

it pains my heart. i mean like, we argue etc

but at the end of the day, they're still my baby sisters

and i'm still the older sister who's

supposed to always be there.

i am, i promise i am and will be.

everyone knows that when it comes to my family,

if anyone ever touches them, i turn into a bxtch.

even worse than blair waldorf and georgina sparks combined.

i promised you i will always be there to back you up,

and i will. but you need to learn to handle things yourself.

because one day, eventually, you'll have to learn

to be independent. me and dad can't do everything forever.

and i know you can.

just find the courage to be you.

♥

compared to guys, i'm innocent.

things might be fxcked up right now,
but no matter what, i promise i'll try my best
to hold up your world with my
tiny wrists and flubbery arms♥
met up with tim today, i think i'm getting the hang of

tim being late and arriving at the time i think he'll be there.

bummed around at home at watched Dear John (;

went out later to meet sean, kit, tommy, emily and vivian.

ate at wong kei and went to gamezone after.

haven't seen emily in ages and only met vivian today,

we were like, the loudest girls everywhere we went lol.

omg. first time i got kicked out of gamezone.

fxck the stupid white guy who speaks no english.

but to be honest, i think i got aasked for ID

cos vivian has a baby face and emily looks like my age lol

but whateverrrr.

so me, emily, vivian and tommy went to troc.

tommy and kit kept on poking my flubber =="

walked to uniqlo and then to trafalgar square.

omg, tim kept on disappearing!

walked emily and vivian to leceister square station

and went to tim's and played cards with the forfeit

of answering questions - which, were all sex-related.

typical guys.

allow your boyfriend masturbating over other girls.

must make you feel lowly and stupid.

well, i don't know about you, but i did.

kit said it's no biggie, but it still makes me feel strange.

been re-watching bull fighting again, it's soo good! (:

watching it has reminded me about the times i said to kit,

"i'm tired" and he'd just piggyback me -

like when he piggybacked me from troc to our bus stop

in like, the speed of light lol; aww, he's the best ah gor/ah ba lol (:

got S1 exam on thursday so going into school tomorrow;

to revise and then revise economics for friday.

super busy unfortunately! :(

i don't think anyone should be allowed

to take my boyfriend's coats apart from me.

♥

i wanna give you the strength♥

you're not alone, you have me.

and i promise, i will always stand by you.

shxt happens, but why does it have to happen to you?

i wish all your burdens could be passed onto me.

i'm so sorry for making things difficult - most times.

but i want you to know, that i am here for you.

and don't be afraid to tell me what's on your mind,

because worrying is my nature and i promise, i'll just listen.

i won't worry you more and i won't ask.

i hope things patch up soon in your life.

and i wish i could say, at least you have me..

but i know that although i might not be

one of the biggest problems at the moment,

i am one of them, i'm sorry.

i love you.

♥

chuck and blair. blair and chuck.

"eight letters, three words.

say it and i'm yours."

omg i haven't blogged in like, forever!

spent the entire week revising for chemistry -

which was yesterday and it wasn't even that bad!

but, i'm not gonna jinx it 'cause knowing me,

if i found it easy, then i did bad! :(

and even if i did good, then i've just jinxed it.

auntie amy came over and stayed for the week.

couldn't stop finding time to pressurize me into chemistry.

just because you're rich you know things,

doesn't mean everyone'll listen to you.

and to be honest, even if i don't become a doctor -

yes, my mum will be disappointed but she'll get over it.

because it's my life, and in the end,

i'll find something else to please her with.

tim drove us up yesterday night.
got daddy a birthday cake and we ate it early,
'cause mum said tim was there so might as well.
which basically means he's a part of the family right?

another awkward car journey, aiyah..

i'm sorry i'm so 'sew hey' but so are you.

and you're a guy.

and if you only just realised i'm 'sew hey'

then you really don't know me well enough.

and all i did was change your wallpaper, diew.

i never know what i can and can't do with you.

and everything i do seems to always be wrong.

i'm not doing anything first anymore.

all i asked for was a call to see if you're home safe.

how hard is it for you to even do that, or even a text?

when you offer to drive me, you make it seem so troublesome.

i'd rather take the last bus home.

when i care for you, you'll get annoyed and tell me

to not worry so much all the time.

but it's you we're talking about.

no one said love hurt more than this.

everyone said you would hurt me sooner or later,

no one believed you'd be the right one for me, 

no one believed that we could last forever,

but i didn't believe them because i love you.

but now.. i really don't know what i can do.

you make me question if i really have a space in your heart.

i've done almost everything i can,

to show you how much you mean to me.

from sticking 1318 pieces of pasta for nights

and until i fell ill, to little things like writing you letters

and giving you surprise visits.

i'm not doing anything anymore.

because i think i've tried almost too hard,

to keep you by my side.

i always give and i don't ask for anything in return.

but if it's you, then i'd like for your love in return.

and if it's a daily thing, then a text will be fine.

but you don't even have time for that.

how would you have time for me..

i don't want to feel like we're falling apart.
and i don't want you asking me "why i bother with you"
and how "you're not worth my time"
because we both know i'd never break your heart.
i'm still as infatuated with you as i was three years ago.

but the little things you don't do, they hurt.

you can think i'm going overboard now,

but it's everything i haven't said.

because the tears say it all.

camwhore. ♥

♥

new sunglasses, summerrr♥

♥

chemistry exam in 5 days! :(

didn't go into school on tuesday -

tummy cramps were soo horrible!

just slept until 10 something which was nice.

and then i bummed around on facebook,

went out and returned a dress i'd bought with tasnia.

went back to school for wcd auditions and omg!

we did so badly! we could've done so much better!

wednesday, i was just being lazy, didn't go in.

tim was supposed to bring me to school -

but he was late again, no surprise there.

even after we'd just argued about his lateness!

went to china town, bummed around.

got mcds breakfast and went back to his.

came out and met sean and kit in the evening,

ate at wong kei and tim went to the gym with them,

and dyed kit's hair.

thursday, i actually went in because i'd promised tim.

school was so boring and i spent hours copying up

everything they'd done in maths for the past week.

met up with tim again after 'cause i thought i needed help,

but i went through it with people and a teacher.

went out for dinner at cafe rouge with tim,

tim's mum and martin! (:

friday, went to bear factory after school with tasnia -

went to like, three bear factories and finally got one!

made a bear-bear with a red polo and white boxers!

named it 'antony sing wong' and set the birthday

to our four month anniversary which was on

the 10th of may 2010! it's superrr cute! (:

went to tim's house with tasnia.

unfortunately, rajiv didn't come out! bleh!

so we wondered around, got a "'yow tza gwai" to eat,

and ate at kfc not long after lol.

took her to the tube around 7 and went back to tim's.

watched "feel 100%" on my laptop -

cos i'd lent it to him the night before.

my laptop's messing up again!

it's soo annoying!

mum picked me up and on saturday..

did nothing but bum around and then revised a bit.

it's sunday now and god knows when i'm

actually going to dive into revision head first.

♥

happy four months baby ♥

happy four months baby

even though we're in like, mid-argument,

there's no point using that as an excuse

to prevent myself from telling you this.

actually, it feels like i'm in an argument with myself.

how stupid.

bleh.

these four months have been crazy.

from driving for longer than a plane flight to china,

to turning up at my doorstep at 10pm

with a hello kitty wrapped in a cute fluffy blanket.

i love you.

and i don't care if the whole world was against it.

i don't care if we're having stupid arguments,

because as long as you don't give up on me,

then i'm still here holding up your world

with my skinny wrists and flubbery biceps.

♥

i miss you, it's only been a day ♥

i don't know about you,

but i miss you so fxcking much right now.

and it's only been a day since i last saw you.

and i know i wasn't the most loving..

but when you pulled me into those hugs,

i finally felt like you did care about me.

i didn't think that you didn't care at all,

i just thought.. bleh, i don't know.

i didn't know you'd care enough

to turn up at my doorstep with a surprise (:

dor tsei ley, low gong BB ♥

i sprained my ankle yesterday,

and my stomach cramps are killing me,

so if anything, i wish i was in your arms right now.

that way, nothing would hurt anymore.

i could be crying for days.

i could be confused for days.

but the second you pull me into a hug

with enough strength to

pull the earth and sun together;

that's when i know,

everything'll be okay.

because in the end,

we're worth it.

♥