FLUBBER BE GONE! ..pleasee?

i'm tired of rumours starting,
i'm sick of being followed.

i'm tired of people lying,
saying what they want about me.
i have come to realise that being skinny isn't all that.

and being size zero may feel amazing,

but actually, you look disgusting.

skin and bones.

i tried so hard to be super skinny back in the day,

and only recently when i started gaining weight again,

and i looked through the photos from last summer,

i have realised how disgusting skinny i was.

and even then, i thought i was fat and continued dieting.

actually, at some point i wasn't even dieting anymore,

i just got used to eating hardly anything.

and it made me feel amazing when i could go shopping

and pull out a size 6 rather than the usual 8 or 10.

"i'm so skinny i have to buy clothes from mothercare."

okay, that scared me.

selina's the same age as karman,

and she can't find clothes in high street shops

because even the smallest size slides off her shoulders.

and to be honest, her legs and arms scare me.

i don't think i ever reached that bad,

but i was definitely heading that direction.

"would you rather be super fat, or super skinny?"

i used to say super skinny because then,

at least i'd feel good about myself.

wtf, right?

but actually.. i think i'd rather be super fat,

because at least then, i'd be able to lose the flubber!

to stop eating is easier than to force someone to eat.

i just wish i was a little skinnier.

not even to how i was back in the day,

but no flubber, and a perfect figure.

allow my stupid body.

please make me look like her!

♥