all she does is cry ffs.

Do you know why your ring finger is your ring finger?
Because a vein in that finger connects
to the largest artery in your heart.
A vein in the finger your wedding ring
goes on connects directly to the heart.

seeing you smoke makes me feel so helpless.

and allowing you to when you ask with those eyes,

makes me feel even worse.

yet i don't do anything about it.

not that i don't, but i dont' think i can.

smoking increases the chances of asthma attacks,

could permanently damage your airways,

and blocks the benefits of your medication.

if anything, the next time you want to smoke,

i just want you to remember reading this,

and maybe reconsider lighting that fag.

i regret buying anything related to damage you,

i wish i had stood my ground and never bought them.

but i did, and now i'm a cause too,

i am so so sorry.

i just wish, that at the back of your mind somewhere,

there's a thought to give up smoking to prevent

anything bad happening to you in the future, or now.

i just wish, there was one reason,

enough to encourage you to stop smoking.

whether it be because passive smoking

harms the people around you,

and increases the chances of asthma for them,

and because you know how it feels,

it's enough to stop you smoking.

or whether it is because you could save

so much more without having to buy cigarettes.

i want to give you the determination to.

but i don't want to ask you to stop for me,
because i know it's easier said than done.
and to be honest, i don't think i'm enough
of a reason to give up something
you do when socialising.

and now, i feel like the only way to help you,

is by carrying a pump with me whenever i am with you.

i feel so helpless.

watching you scratch away

at the peeling parts of your cheeks

makes me want to cry.

i know i can't cure eczema,

because we both know that there is no cure,

there are only ways of preventing symptoms.

so i can only watch you become frustrated

at the condition you have been given unfairly.

and because eczema is linked to asthma,

it makes me feel even more helpless.

all i can do, is remind you to take your medicine,

and carry your cream with you.

and i know that you try hard not to smoke around me,

but there are times when you want to so badly,

and watching you like this hurts,

so i have no choice but to allow you.

i can't seem to put it into words, so i just stay quiet.

but i'm scared tim, i'm scared for you.

it took me three years to get you,

and now i have you, i don't want to lose you.

and don't say, "it's fine, everything'll be okay,

i'll be okay."

because we both know,

with the way things are at the moment,

in the end, it won't be okay.

no matter how optimistic either of us are.