Tuesday 2 February 2010

she's breaking inside.

just walked out of school today after break,
was going to stay until i got registered period 3.
but miss hardy wasn't in and the cover took forever.
soeng ha tried to keep me in school,
but i couldn't stay there anymore.
everywhere i went, it felt like people knew
and it felt like i no longer belonged.

went to hemel to see tim.
the second i saw his beautiful smile,
i found where i belonged, in his arms.
but i can't keep leaning on him,
and by bunking, it's going to affect him soon.
just because i have too many troubles,
i can't burden other people with them.
that's just being fxcking selfish.

zak, tasnia, ally and that lot are worried,
i know you guys are, i'm really sorry.
i don't know how to tell any of you.
not even tasnia.
it hurts to tell, and it hurts to keep it in.
and hearing you all say,
"i want to see your smile again"
makes me even more upset
because i know i'm causing you guys trouble too.

but for now, i really don't know what to do.

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