mixed feelings.

hey blogger, i wish you could help me out.

i miss having a boyfriend, a lot.

when i log into facebook now, all you see in my news feed,

are people having silly arguments with their boy/girlfriends,

and everyone's status has someone to talk about.

i realised, that at times when i need someone,

there usually isn't anyone.

today was the only friday night i'm in london,

and there was not one person who i could spend it with.

not even the person who had declared his love for me.

man it felt really lonely.

i'm getting so confused because lately,

i've been getting mixed feelings about everyone.

even the people i wouldn't have expected

to have any kind of feelings for,

whether i start dislking them, or liking them.

i'm so glad this week is over.

it has been five days too long.

why is my mother more messed up than me?

she's so selfish and always has to be in control,

and everything that happens has to have her opinion.

she always does things the way she wants,

with no consideration about other people or their views.

she doesn't understand the consequences of her actions,

because she doesn't feel them, but other people do.

eurgh, i sound like i've inherited

her asshole-of a personality.

i can't wait to move out.