procrastinating.

"this beautiful city seems empty,

all the people in the world
and you can still feel lonely.

what's the point of having it all
without the person you love?

sometimes you just gotta start all over again,
in order to fly."

trekked all the way down to get to wrc and

ohmygawd i can understand why they need volunteers.

the window front is empty, with nothing but translucent glass -

most boring display i've come across.

A4 pieces are pinned up messily on the display boards,

with no colour or anything that would catch your eye.

the volunteers or the employers working at the front desk

look half awake and lack smiles to welcome you.

but i hadn't realised that when i signed up for this,

there would actually be so much work lols.

to top it off, she expects us to meet deadlines right after

she told us she understands we're full time students.

well at least i got a whole bus journey with

someone who i thought wouldn't talk to me normally again,

and strangely enough, we communicated like civilised human beings,

omg, impossible right? haha, apparently not! :p

well thank the lord for making my day at 3:30pm! :D

i got rejected for the first time in my sixteen years of life.

i have never been rejected by any school i have ever applied for.

i have never been rejected by anything i have auditioned for.

i have never been rejected by anyone i planned to be friends with.

and i have never been rejected by a guy before.

kinda took me by surprise.

not only was it indirect, but he was a smart one.

every response he gave when he faced my questions, was indirect -

like trying to say 'no' in the nicest possible way.

and what makes it worse is my pride always seems to take over.

everytime someone mentions him and asks about my progress,

i'd start to say "actually, he doesn't like m-" and then i'd reconsider,

and be like "yeah, actually, i don't like him nomores anyway."

when in actual fact, monika, tasnia, ally and zak can see right through me.

and then i end up admitting it, so why waste effort covering up at first?

wml, you are the biggest idiot known to every breathing thing on this planet.

for the record mr james, i can tell you now,

i will be the first to drop chemistry after AS,

so you can stop throwing evils at me when you talk about grades,

and who's going to pass onto A2 and who's not.

because we all know who you're insinuating.

walking down harrow road and edgware road and church street,

is probably the most unpleasant experience at night.

especially when you're wearing heels and one,

you can't run if you needed to,

and two, you gotta balance to kick them where it hurts.

don't old shabby wrinkly men feel any sense of dignity when they whistle,

and comment on young girls as they walk pass?

can i not even walk down a road without one pervy old shxt giving his opinion?

well at least i have my best friend back.

well, not completely but it's the best it gets for now.

and at times when i need someone, as i scroll down my phonebook,

i realise that there isn't actually a person i can call nomores.

my weight is just being a joke now.

and the joke's on me.

OMGAH.

glass pianos do exist!

thanks to alicia key's "doesn't mean anything" video :D

i wish i continued playing the piano.

half day tomorrow.

too early to say it's a break from work!

tomorrow, i need to finish off my psychology homework.

and revise for the chemistry test on friday :3

and finish the presentations for badminton and wohaa.

and buy shares for city traders and actually get into top 200.

and hunt around for xmas presents.

and buy new dance shoes and apply for a company.

and buy my chemistry textbook at waterstones.

and do my statistics homework.

and eat less.

and sort out of my fxcked up life.

the last one is clearly top priority.