bee-ay-yuu-tiful lay-dayyy.

people will forget what you said;
people will forget what you did.

but people will never forget
how you made them feel.

a beautiful sunday morning.

was planning to wake up and do some work.

only to realise i hadn't brought any textbooks,

or any books with me - nice one.

so now i'm just bumming around the house,

struggling to do ten sit ups in the morning,

but doing twenty in the evening?

quite amazing, i thought so too.

just looking at the C1 solomon paper,

without my book, i've come to realise,

that i don't actually know very much.

it makes me wonder what happened.

i never used to have to pick up a book,

nor did i have to revise for any exams.

i feel so lazy, as though i'm slacking

with no actual reason.

what a waste of time.

i could even revise the stupid theory test,

but i can't do it until a few years anyway,

so whats the point?

last night my chest really hurt again.

lately, the coughing fits are back,

and it feels like i'm being squashed.

had the strangest dream,

i went to the pharmacy to get an asthma pump.

ended up getting a red one and a blue one?

the blue one had a label saying,

"DEEP BREATH" or something,

and as i was walking back home,

everyone was staring at me.

and looking down to see i was

in my underwear.

please god, don't ever let that happen.

mum and karman are at it again.

god knows about what this time.

i wish i was skinny,

or as skinny as i was in the summer.

i wish i was less self-conscious.

i wish i was more confident.

well, if i was beautiful,

i wouldn't have to wish for these things.

♥