fugly duck.

how is everyone so skinny these days?

looking back at my photos, i know i can't talk.

but there were times when i was fat and i hated it.

no matter what people say to me, whether it is:

"you look fine the way you are."

"it's better to have some flubber."

well i'm sorry, but i don't think it's alright.

i'm getting so tired of looking at my wardrobe,

wondering what the fxck to wear, only to realise,

the reason why i'm standing in front of it for ages,

is because nothing ever seems to fxcking fit me anymore.

so there's some of you who think i went skinny

this summer because of the break up and him?

i went skinny because i was insecure, duh.

i'm not proud of it obviously, but i would rather,

have a slimmer body like i did before,

than this body that i have now.

everywhere, everyone has such nice legs.

everyone has the most amazing figure.

everyone looks so fxcking stunning.

and i feel like the ugly duckling - again.

i want to be a fxcking swan now.

i don't want to be the fattest girlfriend.

i don't want to be the chubby older sister.