i haven't changed, you have.

so i literally just dragged myself up at 6:58am.

woke up at like, 6:50am, and i just thought,

fxck school, i'm going to hemel.

and then i realised how many people

are rooting for me, and seeing as,

i'd already made four days, i could make one more.

wanted to talk to tim last night,

but we went to watch alice in the wonderland

with omar and the guys.

everytime i call, he's always doing something,

or he's always with someone so we can't talk.

and every single time, it's the same line:

"hey babes.. i'll call you later init.."

and he never does anyway.

you say you dont want me to feel like

i have gotten used to the fact that you're always late,

and that you never have the time to talk to me,

but i have gotten used to it 'cause that's what happens.

my "friends" have decided to take the opportunity

to tell roa and the people who are standing by me,

everything about my past and "how i behaved back in the day"

so if you're used to the crazy things i do and say,

then why can't this just be one of the crazy things i do?

it's so funny, how the people you thought

you would never break up with because you've been friends

since day one of primary of secondary,

end up being the ones that hurt you the most,

and is the reason that you have broken up.

our friendship group has actually broken now.

it's always been two groups technically,

but now it has officially split.

rania, kate and monika jam together.

soeng ha, jintana and some other people jam together.

and tasnia and roa are torn between groups.

i hate it.

i hate thinking that this all happened because

of one thing that i did.

people change so quickly.

and ever since sixth form started,

so many people have changed.

and the majority are for the worst.