i hate making decisions.

i love you, not only for what you are,

but for what i am when i am with you.

i was just looking through some people's facebook.

and it's amazing seeing how much, the little year sevens

that i once mentored for a whole year, had grown so much.

and it's kind of like, they're enjoying life, i don't wanna ruin it

but little do they know about all the complications

that they'll face as they grow even older.

like, gcses may seem far away for them,

but when they get to it, it'll be a struggle for some.

and then after gcses, there's a levels, and then uni.

it's on-going stress! :(

so basically, as i was indulging myself in waterstones,

i've come to the conclusion that i want to do psychology in uni.

i know, this is basically the whole gcse and a level choices thing again.

but psychology is actually much more interesting than economics,

and so much more useful, my god.

and i'd rather have to sit ten psychology exams

than two economics exams - or, read more psychology-related books

compared to business and economics books, i guess :)

and after the university visit today,

i kind of really want to go to the university of hertfordshire,

it's not as bad as everyone makes it out to be.

i'm loving the accommodation at the de havilland campus, that's for sure.

so maybe i'll apply for that university twice for two courses lor.

and brunel. and.. queen mary? i'll do some hunting in a bit.

and tim and i were just talking yesterday.

i was getting excited about moving in together in uni;

just like shiok is, with sean.

and i've come to realise, that actually,

it takes a lot of committment to do that,

and a lot of trust.

not implying we don't trust each other enough,

but i think moving in can wait.

if anything, i hate making decisions.

i'm probably the most indecisive person you'll ever meet.

my god. life is actually too fast for regrets after all.

♥